I want to share a story with you to illustrate how powerfully you can change your outside world when you change your inner world. This is not a business story, but the effects of it have rippled out into all areas of my life, and at the time of writing this, I am still seeing shifts and changes happen.
Many of my deep inner shifts and transformations happened on a whole new level when I started working with colour and tuning into, and healing, my ancestral and past life memories. Much of this work happened for me during lockdown, when I got ‘stuck’ in Kenya, alone with my youngest brother (and his wonderful carers) who has many special needs. My brother is blind, has brain damage, and has cerebral palsy, amongst other things. I love him dearly and he is one of the most beautiful souls and cheekiest, funniest people I know, but he is also challenging as his needs are unique and he can demand a lot of attention.
I felt quite overwhelmed in the early days of being with him, as I felt all the responsibility of being there with him without our parents (they were stuck in France). I had only planned to be back in Kenya for a couple of months and then go back to the UK, but this now changed everything. I was also used to being more in control of my own time, but now had to be with him every afternoon for a bit and then in the evenings – which wasn’t so easy as I am much more of a morning person – with no end in sight.
As the reality of the situation sunk in, I found it really hard. I hate to admit it, but I would resent most of the evenings and couldn’t wait to get into bed when I would have peace and quiet and be on my own. I found my brother really loud and I felt so angry and definitely went into victim mode about being there in that situation.
But, as I began to go deeper into the anger, the sadness, the victimhood, and other things I was feeling, old stories and memories from my childhood were brought up. Things I hadn’t dealt with from that time began to re-surface. Stories about responsibility and feeling like I always had to be the one to look after my siblings in difficult situations. Feeling like my parents always got out of being the responsible ones. As these things began to come up, I was able to heal and transform them through taking back my power and owning myself as an adult.
As I did this, I began to notice a huge difference in my brother. He would be quieter and gentler in the evenings, and I found myself really beginning to enjoy being with him again. As I continued on my deep diving and shifting my emotions and triggers that were coming up, completely changing my vibration and how I felt internally, he kept on mirroring it back.
One of the biggest changes I saw was after working through and releasing a deep-held trauma in my sacral chakra. I came into the room to be with him, feeling lighter but emotionally exhausted and expecting to have to give him attention. Instead, he asked me for a big hug, which he only did before when he wanted something, and kept asking for them all afternoon. It was so heart-warming and such an affirmation of my energy shifts happening inside, being mirrored by my brother who could only feel the energy of what had been happening.
After that, I also began to get more enquiries on my website and booked in more discovery calls than I had ever previously booked in one week.
This blog post is an excerpt from my book, Embodied Business.
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