I find that expressing yourself and allowing yourself to express are closely linked with feeling safe to be seen and can come up as a block in the throat chakra. Some of the ways this might show up in your life are not speaking up, not sharing your opinion, not expressing yourself creatively, not speaking your truth, or holding yourself back from sharing and expressing in any way.
When I first joined a women’s circle and was petrified of being seen, I was actually even more afraid of expressing myself. I got used to being seen quite quickly and felt safe amongst others who didn’t judge me, but it took me longer to actually begin to speak up and share my opinions, or my intuitive feelings and thoughts. I would often hold back and let others speak and share before me. Some of the reasons that came up for me were: I wasn’t confident in what I had to say, I didn’t want to be wrong, and I didn’t want to be judged. A small part of this does come from me liking to feel into everything first and know where I stand, but I realised that even if I got an intuitive feeling about something quickly, I wouldn’t say anything. I began to notice that others would share the same thing that I was thinking, and this showed me that what I had to say was valid.
As I started to reveal the layers of what might be holding me back from speaking up and expressing myself, some of the things that came up for me were childhood, ancestral and past life memories, and traumas. This was the case for a few of my clients who also had fears around expressing themselves fully, with a common theme being persecution for speaking up.
I have had clients who, during regressions, have connected to a memory of being burned alive, hanged, cut at the throat, strangled, drowned, or thrown off cliffs simply because they shared their voice in some way. One client in particular, who knew deep down that she is a writer, was having huge fear around sharing her words with anyone. She connected so powerfully to a memory of being burned alive that her entire body was also burning up as she regressed. As she learned why she was being burned for speaking out against the status quo, she realised she had been betrayed and sold out by her husband, and labelled an outcast by everyone she loved. As we worked together, holding her in love and acknowledging the experience, accepting it for that lifetime, and giving her what she needed, she felt a huge release in her being and started to share more vocally and visibly within days of our session.
On a separate note, a practical way to support yourself to speak up is to simply take action and let yourself speak up. Over time you will likely stop caring about what others think and stop judging yourself for not saying the ‘perfect’ thing. I have done this, and the more I did it, the more confident I felt. I realised that we are all more concerned with what we are each saying than what someone else is saying. I didn’t need to be so worried that I was being scrutinised. The more I accepted myself, the less I judged myself also.
What are you afraid of when it comes to expressing yourself?
What might be holding you back and how can you begin to support yourself here?